Blow to the head

Everythings going wrong
I'm broken once again
Now you are so gone
And your love I can not regain

I lay hear in pain
But does it compare
To the amount of blood I drain?
Heart break is in the air

Why does this always happen to me?
I guess i deserve this sh!t
The only way for me to get me free
Is the suicide I'll have to commit

Yet another blow to the head
If i get another one
I might end up dead