There isn't much that i want in this world
Only a few things from this scarred covered girl
I want my mother to not wish i would be dead
My gram tells me she is sick in the head
So i hope that this world can help her get better
Then maybe I'll actually be glad i met her
This world gave me hell through my 15 years of life
I try to blame it on the world of why i went to the knife
I couldn't handle it anymore
I wasn't sure why I was still here for?
I lost 8 best friends that have died
And through my whole life, i hardly cried
I thought If i cried, that i deserved pain
That's a reason that is driving me to be insane
I was made to have sex and abused by a boyfriend
I still love him, i wish i could just pretend
One side of my family told me that i should hurt myself right
All we ever do is constantly fight
My arms and hips are covered with inches of scars and pain
All my friends have sunny days, i only get rain
I HAD an angel come into my life
She was the reason why i stopped solving things with my knife
I'm only fifteen and it's only getting worse
It sucks for us people who feel we are under a curse
So since I'm treated so beautifully from this world i live
There's only 2 things i want as a kid
I want my mother's thoughts to straighten out
This is something I'm constantly yelling about
But the 2nd thing i want is my buddy to make it through
this world sucks, but i didn't give up because of you
Yeah Jen...I'm referring about you
I was going to give up, but then you were the one i came to
I don't care how bad or good my life will be
I don't care what comes and goes, what i leave or what i see
I want YOU to be honestly happy with this world of yours
I hope life opens for you unlimited doors
I miss you already and you aren't even gone
But if my dream comes true, then i will get along
I don't dream big, i dream for my mother and you
so kins...starting rocking on and oh yeah i heart ya too *member NOT SEXUALLY*
