My Freak Show Life

A mass of
Compacted confusion
Delusional dreams
Fiery frustration
Accumulated anger
Stubborn sight and
Internal issues
Crammed into a human skin
Molded, shaped, and attached to her strings
A solemn marionette
A toy of some greater life force’s entertainment
My strings are tangled
Breaking, through my resistance
My painted expression smearing, chipped
From tears, struggle, and pain
But still I am put on display
The freak-show highlight
Look at the girl who resisted!
Stare at the freak who won’t conform!
Do me a favor while humiliating me:
Take ten seconds and let me explain,
Take ten more to try to understand
I don’t want to live my life
Dodging your glances