I'm tired of being here

I’m so tired of being here,
I’m so tired seeing your face,
I’m so tired of the words you tell me,
I don’t want to be here no more,
People told me to stay strong and I’ll make it,
I try and try,
Yet I always fail,
These wounds don’t seem to heal,
I need you here,
I need you to wipe away my tears,
I need you to hold my hand and tell me,
I’ll be O.k.,
I’ve tried so hard to tell myself,
I’ll be fine,
But I still find that blade in my hand,
You always find a way to brake me down,,
You would scream at me,
I would sit there and ask you to please stop yelling,
Yet all you say is “Shut the hell up.”
You’ve threaten o call the police on me,
For what?
I didn’t do anything bad,
All I did was talk,
Maybe your scared of the truth,
You make me sick to my stomach,
I don’t know how you can live with yourself,
As each day passes by,
I look at you and make my want to puke,
You’re so fake,
And rude,
When I die,
I’m going to haunt you every night,
And make you wish,
You never told me to kill myself,
I’m going to watch you from below,
Soon you will join me too,
And hope you suffer,
Cause of the pain you and Dad caused me,
I’m going to be watching you from below,
Cause soon you’ll join me too.