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by Lenee.Roca Aug 20, 2005 category : Miscellaneous / Misc. poems
I love you so much.. you've been there for me since we were kids.. you know me better than i know myself.. no one's ever gotten so close to me by yards.. i usually push people away but i let you in, in my heart.. they think i don't care when they talk behind my back.. but you know i do and you respect that.. you promised me that you would never leave my side.. but where are you now? you've gone home to where you belong.. you never said goodbye you just closed your eyes.. i remember that day like it was yesterday.. i cried until my eyes were bloody red.. and sat on my knees for days on end yelling at God for taking you away.. then one night i fell asleep.. i had a dream and you told me to hold on.. i woke up and told my mom and she told me it was a sign.. i was to young to get what she meant until now.. i realize she meant i should be strong and hold on.. i thought i would never get threw it but i did.. when people mention you i still get tears in my eyes.. i loved you so much.. i still do you should know.. every now and then i have that same dream.. i wake up and feel so strong, like i can get through anything.. i know if i think i can get threw anything i can.. but some how i feel like your pulling me to you like you need me now more than ever.. so one day in school i went to the bathroom.. i pulled our my razor and slit my writs.. i had blood on my clothes on my jeans and the floor.. i got so scared i ran to the nurse.. that's all i remember.. now here i am sitting on the hospital bed.. dieing slowly my mom holding my hand.. she's scared to death she keeps staring at my wrists.. i try to hide them but i can't move.. i gasp and she looks up she says hold on.. no don't go!.. she screamed for the nurse but when she got there it was too late.. i was on a journey to go home to be with you.. i met you at the gate i felt like i was just born.. the past was in the past and i could live how i wanted.. i had everything i ever dreamed of having.. --then i woke--