I’m sitting here
Crying silent tears to myself
Whilst you’re sitting there
Silently dieing
I have tried to be honest with you
And tell you that I screwed up
But with each of my attempts
I fail
I know you have never trusted me
And now you never will
But what you don’t understand
Is that I trust you
I see you with the new cuts on your arms
And I see the way you fake your smile
You tell me nothing of what you feel
And then leave me to fill in the blanks
I don’t know what else there is to do
I’ve tried to help
But only made it worse
And nowI'm dieing from your pain
Maybe I should just leave this world
Maybe that would help you
Maybe I should just stop trying
And maybe that would keep you here
I’m sorry for everything I have done
I’m sorry for my failed attempts
I’m sorry I couldn’t be what you wanted me to be
And I’m sorry I have to leave like this
I hope now you can finally get on with your life
And not have to worry about me and my screw-ups
I hope you have fun for your living days on earth
And I’ll remind god to save you a place in heaven
