Misslead

I don't understand this life
And I probably never will
Most people think I cut
Just to see myself bleed
But truth is...
I don’t even like looking at blood
It makes me sick
I never thought it would become a habit
I never thought I’d cut to deep
I never thought I’d have these scars
To remind me of the things I’ve done in life
I never thought it would happen to me
I never thought I’d want to die
But I guess the devil has blessed me
The pain I feel everyday
Never seems to want to go away
Why can't I just be happy?
And satisfied with life
I guess my only satisfaction lies within the blade of a knife...