I wish and wonder why

I wish and wonder why,
i cant be like her,
you know your my only guy,
it seems like just a blurry

the feelings i feel are still the same,
my love for you still remains,

nothing will ever be enough for you,
even while you know my heart is splitting in two,

you say the sweet things i deserve,
but it is only to her,

i have missed you way to much,
you, everything, even your touch,

but that doesn't matter to you,
i wish you could get a clue,

she doesn't care, and i do,
in twenty years i will still love you,

she is the object of your desire,
that is my only aspire,

your back but don't matter,
if only my pain would scatter,

i still hope,
like a dope,
for your love,
i sometimes pray to the above,
and i still wish and wonder why,
you chose her and not i......