Just Me

With a hole in my heart,
a knife in my hand,
a life I've misused...
friends who can't understand..
With tears in my eyes,
fear in my mind,
through all this is a light,
but I seem to be blind..

With wishes for happiness,
a feeling of disgrace,
horrible problems..
I can't seem to face..
With wonderful memories..
all cold and dead..
with footsteps, I crumble them
like fallen leaves, as I tread
With my only friend,
the only one who can see
how misunderstood I really am..
and how I want to be free
Be free from this life..
leave this world
give up on my dreams
make my life unfurled
So finally you can read
what's been hidden inside
when it opens you'll see
how much I've lied..

I implore, please don't
I don't want you to try
don't try to stop me..
I'll choose how I want to die...
As for what I have to live for
as for how much people "care"
it shouldn't matter to them..
because I'll still be there.

On this Earth
just.. this time I'll finally belong.
Under the dirt..
where I will no longer be wrong
Finally, just how it was meant to be
I won't have anymore false hopes
just my only friend
.. just.. me.