Goodbye

You're slipping away
more and more everyday
what is happening to us?
what is all of this fuss?
why is the pain coming back?
why is there so much that we lack?
I use to love you unconditional
our daily schedule became traditional
but now I only feel the pain
that I've struggled everyday to regain
all of this conflict is making me freak
making me find someone else to seek
you, me, and my mother
argue like there is no other
tear after tear
year after year
is all that I feel inside
that I can no longer hide
I love you yet I hate you
I'll stay with you but I won't date you
dunno what to do
except for leave you
but my heart won't allow this
there will be too much that I will miss
you've made me so happy
but now so sad
everything just hurts so very bad
this love no longer feels right
and It won't end without a fight
but I don't wanna hurt you
I don't wanna desert you
I'm just not ready
to be going steady
I see the love you have for me
which makes it even harder for me to be
the one that breaks your fragile heart
I just think for a while we need to be apart
you've treated me like a pot of gold
and was always there for me to hold
to me you've never done anything wrong
but this road I walk upon became very long
It's getting harder everyday
and please believe me when I say
it's not you this time it's me
and now its out for everyone to see
that I still love you but must let go
even though I still love you so
as hard as it is to say goodbye
I will try my hardest not to cry
I don't want this space to last very long
for you are the one that has never done me wrong
but I'm too young to be having these feelings
and I hope that we both encounter healings
I will say goodbye but not for life
for I still hope to someday be your wife