Gossip girl

I used to be a geek..
i didn't have one friend..
no one to talk to do..
or hold on to till the end

no one to care for..
and no one to care for me
id sit home alone all night..
just wishing i could be

the girl with long blonde hair
the ruler of the school
who was the miss. of the class
even though she was cruel

and then one day it happened
"the girls" were talking to me
my first real friends..
is what i thought they would be

we went to the mall
and stayed up talking all night
about make up and boys..
it all just felt so right..

but it wasn't right at all..
it was all stupid and fake..
but by the time i saw..
i was far too late..

to walk away untouched
with no pain to feel
i was already bleeding
to much too try and heal

the rumors that were all over
every time i turned around
the girls would start to giggle
and i would start to frown

and i couldn't escape them
they were all around me
those back stabbing biotchs
were all i could see

and i wish i could just let it go
like nothing happened to me
like I'm completely fine
and that my pain wasn't for them to see

but i couldnt do that
all i could do was pray
that soon things will go back
.. back to the old way..

where i was lonely..
but i was okay..
and i didn't want to die..
every time they came my way

where i was so much better off
so much better than before..
where i had to deal with loneliness
not some stupid gossip girl