Either Way

The girl nobody longs to see,
The one that i have come to be.
The lying eyes,
A sweet disguise,
And scars you cannot see.
The pain inside my broken heart,
Confusion in my mind.
I don't know what to do anymore,
The answers faded with time.
Ripping apart,
From the inside.
Denying all the things she hides.
Losing grip,
I slowly slip,
Off the edge,
Of sanity.
I'm losing all the things,
That create me.
My broken heart,
Has yet to mend.
I don't think i can hang on much longer,
I can't pretend.
I can't hide it all,
You can't stop the fall.
I don't know who to trust,
Or who to believe.
Should i open my heart?
Or keep letting it bleed?
Either way, I'll remain broken,
Either way, I'll be in pain.
Either way, I'm still lonely,
It will always be this way.
Whether i let you inside,
Or keep you away.
No matter what happens,
I'm alone and afraid.
I'll either remain broken,
In pieces on the floor,
Or survive another heartache,
Just like the ones before.
No matter what happens,
No matter what i do.
It will never get any better,
Than the pain I'm going through....

*~Lol i know it sucks. Sorry.~*