I can't understand this anymore. These feelings inside of me are driving me to do things I don't want to. I can't control it, I'm starting to scare myself because of the thoughts that sworm my head. Everytime your name comes up, I feel a pain in my heart and hatred in my head. Maybe it was because you were a crush, before you were my friend. Now though we can barely say more then a sentence, only becuase through one year we've drifted apart. Now when I see you in the halls, it feels like grade 8 all over again. The first time we saw each other. I want to know you, but deep down I know it will end with my heart being hurt or even broken. Now, we can't even remain friends. And it's part my fault, but because you shut me out of your life, I've come to realize something, before I met you my life was perfect. I've come to realize that if you want to shut me out of your life, than I can do the same thing to you.
