I Never Really Loved You

It's hard for me to do this
Each and every night
But its even harder going on
Knowing this isn't right

So many times
I've cried myself to sleep
And made promises to you
I knew I could never keep

Whenever I held your hand
All I could think of was 'him'
So many secrets
Were bottled up within

Believe me when I say
I never meant to break your heart
I thought I was over with him
And wanted to give you a shot

But at the end of every night
I realized he was only on my mind
Even when your arms were around me
I just thought of him all the time

I'm sorry I got involved with you
When my heart belonged else where
I'm sorry I was messing with your mind
Because all you ever did was care

I can only imagine how you feel
Knowing everything I said was never true
But now I'm going to be honest
I never really loved you..