Its never heard
I'll be smiling ever so gently
while the inside is screaming for it too stop
make it all go away
wish this had never started
everyday i drag my burden behind me
the growing ball and chain
attached to my straining ankle
I'll be laughing so happily it seems
while the inside is steadily crying
crying for you to come closer
yet I still push you away
I'm sorry for all of this
no more empty gestures
can't you see it destroys me?
All this love you give, can't you tell it shall be wasted?
But no, the sweet bliss of hope
keeps us hanging on
even when it all seems lost
this unheard voice inside of me
tells me to pull away
from this vicious invisible embrace
I'm just trying to save my own skin
but so are you
my dreams, my pleasure, my only
the star hangs mockingly close
I make wild lunges
my heart ready to burst
for I want you so bad
but the star just laughs and jerks up higher into the night sky
I tell you I love you,
but the inside is being torn up
whimpering for this to all end
and yelping for it to all begin
