I never knew 8-22-05

I never knew your pain
I never knew your hell
I never knew your hatred

I never knew your heartache
I never knew your love
I never knew your journey

I never knew your situation
I never knew how bad things were
I never knew it would all end like this

I never knew that I would want to go back in time
I never knew that I wouldn't see my sister grow up
I never knew I would walk the isle alone

I never said I loved you enough
I never gave my shoulder to catch your tears
I never threatened anyones life for hurting you

I never got to be the sister I should have been
I never got to have the sister you are
I never got to look evil in the eyes

I'll never know what I missed
I'll never know how to fix my mistakes
I'll never know how to heal you

I know how to love you
I know how to hate you
But mostly, I know how to miss you