I Gave in Today

by Torn   Aug 23, 2005


I hadn't been counting,
But i knew it'd been a while.
Sine i turned to that knife,
To rid me of my thoughts.
Thought i could never go wrong,
But today had been too like the others.
Too many stares and ignoring,
Too many 'friendly' put-downs.
I knew all was wrong,
As i was walking home,
The tears just wouldn't stop.
Enter my warm house,
And more abusive comments.
No i can't take this,
I'm not strong enough anymore.
i took my selection secretly,
And cut away and my fears and tears.
This familiar feeling of relief,
Makes me feel so whole,
If only for a little while.
The accomplishment sets in,
But soon followed by the guilt.
Of this horrible lie I'm living,
Of this life you all took.

*please comment, I'll check out your poems..promise!!*

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  • 19 years ago

    by Timothy B

    Good flow and words. Sad story tho. Hope things get better soon

  • 19 years ago

    by Peachez**

    If you want check out my poem January 5th. It's about my cutting battle too.

  • 19 years ago

    by Peachez**

    OMG I know how you feel. And dont get me wrong I am not just one of those people who says things like that because I am trying to fit into your world or suck up, or just because I cant find anything better to say. I began cutting when I was 14(a freshman) and I got really addicted. I could barely go a day. Then I got a really big wake up call. And I figured out life was to short and I needed to stop. This wasnt the way to heal my heart or fix my problems. But trust me saying you're quitting and actually doing so, are two completely different things. It's so hard, but I dont give up. I have a support system, kinda like AA. I fight daily, but it's worth it. Because I am such a better person now. Two days ago I hit six months. I didnt think that day would ever come. So trust me, if these poems are true. Fight it. It will get better. And thanks for the poem it made me get a great look on life today.
    Keep smiling
    Heather

  • 19 years ago

    by AmAnDaA

    Wow....after reading this i had to pause for a while bcuz it reminded me so much of myself it scared me

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