Mixed up

I don't love you,
or maybe i do?
But to tell you the truth,
I'm numb to wards you.
I try to do the right thing
By not talking, ignoring or hiding away.
But all that does it makes me die from day to day
My hearts breaking,
My life's shaking
All i want to do is start from the beginning
have a reason for living......
Mixed emotions in my mind,
sometime life can be so unkind