Each Time

Each time I see you I melt inside. All it takes is one look from you and I'm yours. One smile, a horrible day is again sunny. One kiss and I have little explosions all over. Each time I say I love you-I feel a release. Even though you don't say it back, I feel somewhat better just for saying it.
I will admit, sometimes I secretly hope and wish that you’d say it back. At first I though I would die not hearing it back, having that quietness and that awkward moment. Many times I cursed my-self forever saying it at all. One does not want to look vulnerable or needy. We all strive to achieve independence and self worth- so feeling so vulnerable at that very moment was in itself very hard for me to do. But would I ever change it? No. Would I ever regret being the one to ask you out? Never-I finally understand this quote; to have love and loss is better than to have never loved at all; if this one day ends, and I no longer have you in my life- will I be sad and upset yes. Will I survive? Yes. But my life will forever be different- because for whatever length of time I had you in it. That is something that I wouldn’t change or give up.
I don’t know what the exact point of all this was but I just wanted you to know how much I care about you. And how happy I am with you in my life.