Confused

I can not seem to find myself,
No feeling will come,
You left and I realized,
Lovee is an illusion,
It was never what it seemed,
Depression came so easily,
But as time went on,
I had no more reasons to cry,
I am not happy,
For I have rarely a reason to smile,
And I can not think of what to feel,
I do not want to have to think,
I am confused,
And that is worst of all,
So empty inside,
So broken deep within,
Yet glued together,
My face smiles with a mind of its own,
And I’m lost.
And no one seems to care,
No one sees my distress,
Can you find me?
Can you help me to feel again,
Can I go back to loving,
Can I learn to cry again,
Can I cry in your arms,
Or am I alone in this gray room,
Without a heart to break.