Behind my smile

Behind my smile i scream and cry
sitting here dreaming
of the day i die

behind my smile are secrets deep
a cliff so big
the fall so steep

behind my smile i hate me
i wish i was who i USED to be

behind my smile i have many fears
that have haunted me for so many years

behind my smile i lie dead
not loved or missed
just like they said

behind my smile everything hurts so bad
I'm sick of me and being sad

behind my smile my mind is numb
no happiness or likeness
just plain dumb

behind my smile i scream so loud
no lovely sunshine
nothing but cloud

behind my smile I'm getting worse
I'm the unlucky one to have this curse

behind my smile I'm dieing inside
no one bothers to look
i choose to hide

behind my smile sit in a corner
not a happy chap
I'm a mourner

behind my smile i have regrets
behind my smile i hate everything i am and everything i ever will be