Yours Always

Why do people put themselves down so much?
It is because their jealous, as such,
But all they have to realize is that there special and beauty,
And they can get somewhere in life, not as dirty,
People always say to me “I’m ugly, I’m fat!”,
Well they have not looked at me, we’ll leave it at that,
They always hurt a soft spot in my heart,
Within my heart, the tenderness is tart,
But it doesn’t mean you have to make it die,
Cos my crimson blood drips as I cry,
When people abandon me, I feel upset,
I fill up with death and regret,
I just want to slash my wrists, scream out loud,
And what it does not do is make me feel proud,
Is not friendship suppose to make us feel happy?
Happy? Not at all, all it does is make me feel crappy,
And I wish I could die right here, right now,
And nobody would care, but how?
Well nobody cares anyway, so I could die right here,
And nobody would be in fear, not even shed a tear,
And I do so much for you, you would not know,
All I want is for you to be happy, but no,
You want me to remain in my life, forever,
I wish I would, but it does not make be better,
And I still feel so insecure, so helpless,
Cos I know you hate me, so careless,
All you have to do is prove to me that I have a place in your life,
Then maybe I would not have to use the old rusty knife,
But you would never do that, because you know I have figured you out,
And you, well, I know all about,
I thought you were the thing I needed in my life,
I thought you were the replacement for the knife,
And you have been, and always will,
But I want you happy, and I do not fulfill,
So I shall write this out for you,
And to tell you this is so true,
As I sign the paper, my wounds bleed,
As the little letter reads:
“ Hello good friend, I knew this life was all pretend, And now I shall say goodbye, cos I am about to die. Please, don’t get mad, don’t even be sad, just remember you were the best thing to me, and that you could never see, how important you were to me, I felt relaxed and free, but now I shall stop with the good, and start with the bad. How could you be so fake? All those times at the lake, I wish I had sunk my head into the pond, and with death I shall bond. Cos all you did was made me cut, and all you did was lie, but, you were my greatest friend, and you shall be until the end. The end is now near, all crying and lost in fear, please do not be sad or mad, just believe I have gotten rid of the bad. Yours always, Aidan”.