To Becky

Looking in the mirror
I can't help but cry
My vision becomes blurry
Warm tears fall from my eyes

I toss and turn at night
And think to myself
Is living like this worth it
Does it benefit my health

I don't even care
My body shakes with pain
Because I screwed up my life
And I don't have much to gain

I cry, like every night
My pillow muffles the screams
I never have good nights
Sometimes I cry in my dreams

They tell me to die
No realizing that I might
I bet they wouldn't care
They don't want me to be alright

Maybe I wasn't supposed to be
Put on this Earth
It's probably all my fault
That's why they treat me like dirt

Oh well it's all my fault
Whatever I do isn't right
Everything blame it on me
I don't deserve to be alright