Blood sweat and tears

Sitting in the darkness of my room I take the knife,slit my wrist and watch the blood drop to the floor.Hoping all my fears will disappear.I slit it again and start to sweat wondering if Ill regret it. To more slits and the tears come only because its not working, I'm not dieing. I cut deeper and finally I lose all feeling in my arm and then I completely go numb.Is this it ? am I done?, am I dead?Finally death has come for me .It takes me as I lie hear in my blood,sweat,and tears. Suddenly my fears have disappeared.