The reason

I hurt myself
I cry
I just want to die

The reason is
When I need my family
I'm alone
All I want is them to see I am allive

They go on vacations
I stay home
They eat dinner
Me? I don't eat

Maybe one day
I'll have the family that'll love me
Have the family that wants me to be alive
All I want is for my family to notice me

I have the scars from the cuts I did
The broken heart that they did
I have the knife that I try to stab myself with
I have the reason to die

Love?
Family?
Life?
These words and meanings
I must not know

Love to me
Is nothing that I would experience
I thought I have, but never did
If I did I would be happy

Family to me
Is someone who takes care of you
Someone that loves you
Someone that is here for you

Life to me
has family and love in it
I have neither so I have no life
My life itsn't meaningful

No matter how much
I must cry
I must cut
I must hurt
I have no love nor life

The family that use to be here
Is no longer here
The family I used to love
Is no longer the family I used to know

I have gone down a path
That I can not turn back
The pat that I am on
Is the path I must take

Why? You must ask
The reason is
Family has turned their back on me
I am a nothing to them

I am on my own
I have no love no more
The curse I have
Is the curse that runs my life

And the curse
That I have
Has already turned my family away
So what is the point now?