In Memory of Her Honor

I'm tired of the tears I cry,
the drops that fall every night,
the ones that come unexpectedly,
leaving me feeling like i need to bleed.

I'm tired of the pain I feel,
It hurts so much it doesn't feel real,
the pain is an empty void in my heart,
and there's not much i can do to keep it from falling apart.

I'm tired of always being alone,
with no one near, no one to hold,
with no one to make all the bad things right,
with no one here I'm steadily losing sight.

I'm tired of everything i feel inside,
how pathetic I am when something doesn't go right,
the painful memories that burn in a blaze,
leaving me helplessly in a daze.

I've lost sight of true happiness,
and in it's place is mostly sadness,
childhood dreams and innocence gone,
and in it's place is something that feels so wrong.

I want to go back to who i used to be,
the girl with dreams and happy memories,
I want to be the way she remembered me,
before she died and left me empty.

Yes she was a teacher but she was a friend to me,
someone i could trust and who had faith in me,
I wish i could make her come back you see,
she died of cancer and with her died a part of me.

Yet i know that she looks down on me,
and i can't help but wonder if she likes what she sees,
i always look up to the sky and say,
" I'm tryin' Mrs. Carpenter and I'll see you again someday".

R.I.P. to Mrs. Marcia Dion Carpenter who died of Cancer on May 12, 2005 I love you Mrs. Carpenter