Tomorrow

Tomorrow.
dreading it.
after all whats there for me because we all know your not and your never gunna be.
why should i wait.
wait for nothing...
especially if that nothing has to be you..
why cant it be someone who cares.
someone unlike you.
someone who understands.
someone...anyone..but you.
there are reasons i cut and your only one of them.
to let you know the rest would be like me giving myself to you.
its never gunna happen.
i know it.my friends aren't hearing me when i tell them.
your everything to me and you could care less
.you toy with me.
your either hot or cold.
which is it.
i need to know.
i have to know.
its killing me.
this pain it wont go away.
i blame you.
now and forever.
your the reason for this unwanted pain.
its hurts more then hell ever could.
when hell freezes over i hope your there.
then and only then will you maybe feel this pain.
but not quite this pain.
because you are the cause of mine.
i love you but i hate you.
why.
i cant tell you.
why ruin everything now.
everything i dream about and want.
to tell you is a nightmare.
i cant even imagine what you would think.
of everything.it would stop there.
the day you find out is the day i will die.
so this is to you.
the one i love.
the one I’ve always wanted and forever will.
is goodbye.