The Reason, My reason

What is it.
This feeling.
I don’t know
Moms in tears from talking to dad
I have had this feeling once before
But is it the same reason this time
I hope
I pray
I don’t know
I know something’s wrong
But what
Why won’t anyone tell me
What did I do
Tell me
Its not like I don’t want to know
I hate this
This stupid effin feeling
My stupid effin life
Its full of feelings like these.
Makes me feel like I don’t belong
Like I shouldn’t be shouldn't here Dead
That’s it
I wish I were dead
I hate this
Why now
Why why why?
I hate this
I hate you
I hate the lies that people have been putting me through
But screw it..its over now and forever more
I will be gone
Gone away to never return
For your happiness is the reason for my end
So here it is take it n read it carefully
For this is my reason..the reason for my suicide