In darkness, you are still with me,
Filling every dream with care,
I see every wrinkle and blemish,
I see grey captured in your dark hair.
Your chair and the doorway I stood in,
For day after tearful day,
With you sitting silent and thoughtful inside,
Gaining trust, pushing fear far away.
If I think hard enough I can still feel your touch,
Your comforting arm kept me sane,
For such a long time I would not let you near,
But your trust helped me unfurl my pain.
My heart breaks as I start to recall,
My body overcome by the tears,
And the way that you smiled so sadly,
Asking why I would not share my fears.
Finally, I poured my heart out on paper,
Watched the tears prick your eyes as you read,
Felt my stomach grow heavy as you grasped the phone,
Filling my whole mind with stark dread.
You told me there'd be consequences,
That it could not be left alone,
That you wished you could help but secrets were heavy,
And you couldn't cope on your own.
Two weeks on, to the day, you were leaving,
Neither of us returned to that place,
And my mind has blanked out half my memories,
But I'm haunted by your saddened face.
