Sweet Sixteen

Sobbing into my pillow,
crying out of shame
everything you went through
myself i am to blame

i was not always there for you
like i promised i would be
i was a stupid, ignorant kid
i wish instead of you it was me

you did not deserve the hits,
the hunger, or the yells
constantly protecting Steven and Karlie
while going through hell

I knew about the abuse
but i was to scared to do anything
because i had felt those hands
and was terrified of what they would bring

Kayla, its my fault
i should have helped more
now all the pain and guilt i have
is pouring onto the floor

Its almost your birthday
it would be your sweet sixteen
instead of celebrating,
i am sobbing on grass so green

happy birthday Kayla! RIP Oct 1989-Aug 1998 XXXXX