Escape the suffering written in 2002

I try so hard to escape this suffering
but I only find myself in tears
All i do is hide my feelings
but now i'll tell you of the things I fear

The horrible feeling of being alone
this fear that eats away at my soul
is deeper now than you'll ever know
will I ever find a place I can safely go?

I try to escape to my own fantesy place
where I can be me and show my real face

I have no safe haven where I can be free
now the only thing I have known is here temping me

as I sit here fighting this temptaion
to take out my only friend and face eternal damnation