Once to many

Draining me of all emotion.
Leaving us, your family,
To fend for ourselves, in the dust.

So many things as a
Teenager go wrong?
Why this too?
Draining us of all emotion.

I lost my ability to trust!
My words meaning less.
Priding myself on change.
Differences my bragging right.

I suffered in Silence.
For too long!
Held my thoughts back
Once to many!

This voice wants to be
Heard through it all.
Through wind, rain I
Will persevere!

Goodbye, for not only now,
But forever and always.
You hurt us once to many.
My family you tore apart.

Screwing us over for drugs.
An Addict to just one more lie.
My whole life, a lie
Daddy a horrible word to me.

You swore you changed,
Promising never to get high!
I being so naive believed you!
Wanting to believe it all!

Knowing it wasn't true,
But yearning for it to be!
I opened my heart
Opened it wide for you.

Pulling off the scabs on my heart.
With every lie you told,
I kept a tally on my heart.
The wounds deeper and bolder.

Keeping myself hidden,
Exposing nothing to the outside,
Showing none of these flesh-wounds.
Blood dripping silently!

These tears are made of blood.
My heart black as night.
The wounds, now, so deep
Nothing could fill them!

An addict to just one more lie,
My dad doesn't love me.p
He'd rather get drunk or high!
Once to many!

Never to wish this on anyone!
I pray to the Heavens alleviate
This horridness pain.
Never again shall I know the face of joy.

Don't tell me that your sorry,
Or that you understand,
Because in all honesty !
It happened Once to many!