Questions

Why do I have to think so much?Why do my thoughts suffocate me?
Until I cant even breathe?
Why I have so much pain?
I just want to get away from everything!
Why is my best friend a knife
That I hold in my hand and draw against my skin
Watching myself bleed all the pain inside
I wish I could just be happy!
Why do I have so many insecurities?
Why do I worry so much about what others think?
Why do I pretend I'm happy?
Why do I try to please everybody?
Nobody knows this smile is fake
That I just want to go to bed and never wake up!
I feel so alone!
Nobody knows the real me!
How can they?
I dont even know the real me!
I'm so confused!
Why cant I let people get close?
If I did there'd be a chance of getting hurt
So it's better to put these walls up
I have so many questions
But finding no answers.
So why do I ask?