Scared excited and nervous.
I couldn't believe the test when it came back positive.
The feeling of guilt and betrayal that rushed over my body.
The loneliness and crowdedness all hitting me at once.
Knowing that everything would change for better or for worst.
Nervous or ready.
The first picture of you. The names I picked.
The hoping and praying.
Reality and non believing.
So many emotions running through me at once.
When I first found out I couldn't believe it, now I cant imagine doing anything else.
The funny thing about it is... You have changed me in so many ways and you wont be here for a month more.
You are my gift my blessing my being.
Thank you for changing me.
I love you baby boy.
