Scream into Silence

Scream into Silence

I only wished,
That he knew how I felt.
But it tore me to pieces,
It made my heart melt.

I wish he knew how I idled him,
And put him on a pedestal to worship.
And when he fell,
I fell with him.

Slowly he would get up,
But I stayed in the dumps.
More words carved in my arm,
The blood flows out in clumps.

It was anguish and misery,
The suffering and the pain.
So I cut into my arm,
A word, a name.

He is in my heart,
And bleeding on my arm.
He’s the reason for my life,
But here I do me harm.

He’s the one I admire,
As cheesy as this sounds.
He’s the only one, who can help me,
But it's someone else he’s found.

He doesn’t care—
At least not for me.
I guess I'm just nothing,
Good enough to see.

If I told you that I loved you,
Would it be enough?
And if I told you that I need you,
Would you help me out of the rough?

You’re the only one I need,
And it tears me up inside.
I just need to run,
Where from myself can I hide?

If I’ll never be good enough for me,
When will the battle end?
Will I ever be good enough for you?
Please help me my only friend.

So here I scream in silence,
I can’t pick myself up off the ground.
The world is cruel and violent,
And my screams don't make a sound.

My mind is twisted and unsure,
Of all the pain I endure.
Overall I am breaking,
From the hurt that I am making.

But who’s killing who?
Is it me or is it you?
Do you know my hurtful ways?
And the scars from present days.

The blade scrapes away the lies,
And unleashes all the honest pain.
My secrets slowly reveled,
Washing down like rain.

The broken heart shattered,
Pieces fell to the floor.
Every time we try to talk,
I'm just left wanting more.

~Written In Blood~