Alone

Always alone
In a crowd full of people
Always silent
In the midst of chatter
Soul screaming
So loud
That no one can hear it
Heart bleeding
So much
That it seems part of it all
Mind knowing all
But knowing so little
Body accepting
Trying to change what it can't
Not succeeding

It all comes together
Into a person
Screaming, bleeding, and knowing
And they wonder why she feels she needs to leave

To everyone else
She seems almost perfect
pretty popular and smart
but when she looks at herself
she feels only disgust
for the person that is there
and the parts that are not
Wondering why she ever let those parts go
she sits by herself
silently tears flowing down her face

Crushed into a corner
to never return
to wait forever
for something that won't happen
Looking down through eyes that aren't hers
But are

Pretty popular and smart
Screaming bleeding and knowing
She's gone
And the person that is left
Isn't me