Dear diary
Lock away my secrets
I put all trust in you
Empty pages
Wars and rages
Heartbreak and heartache
Honest lies
True and fake
People always on my case
I'm just a useless pretty waste
Painted up
In smiles of lies
Just nod my head
Pretend to care
My body is here
My mind is there
Nothing is good enough for you
I try and try
More and more
Until I'm bleeding
On the floor
I don't know what I did this for
I got used to your pain
A fake I love you
It's all a game
Pump my blood with Novocain
To numb my soul
And numb my brain
With each passing day
The knife scrapes it all away
The fake laugher
And the fake smile
The fake comments
All explode like a missile
Just a ticking time bomb
A new addiction to a drug
A new pain to feel
Sometimes it's nice to at least play along
Even when all your feelings are wrong
It's nice to have someone to hold
Even if it's just in your secret world
The tears are running down
I’ll scream
And not make a sound
