I Chose HiM over TheM

I knew in my heart I didn't want to leave IN, but he left me no choice. My parents drove nine hours to come and rescue me.
As they pulled in the driveway I seen tears running down my fathers face.
I knew right then that I put them through many months of pain.
We returned to my home state.It felt so good to be free from his wrath.
But in my heart it killed to be without him.

Nobody said his name, and I went on with my life as if he didn't exist.
The nights were lonely and I thought about going back. My parents knew something was wrong, and they held family meetings trying to bang it in my head that I didn't need to go through the torture once more.

This lasted six weeks of me pretending that I didn't need him. And then I cracked. It didn't matter to me how I got back or who I hurt. My life is my life and nobody was going to tell me different.

Plans were arranged for him to drive and bring me back. I wrote a letter to my mother and left it on the kitchen table. I carried all my belongings to his car and got in and drove off.

I'm back in IN wondering how I could hurt my family like that. And the worst part about it, is that everyone was right. He is never going to change, and I have broken my family for nothing.