The Life I had

Most Xmas times
are supposed to be bright and gloomy
peoples hearts are supposed 2 shine
but mine was dark and doomy

every-things out of line
since I was 3 things haven't been the same
but its giving me the same old sign
I feel so ashamed

theres no tree up at Xmas time
no presents under the tree
my parents didn't have enough money
to support the family

he took all his anger out on you
crushed it until u bled
theres no food in your belly
no roof over your head

theres only 1 position
that means all the more
the only one knife I found
in that dresser drawer

I only cut
when I need 2 release the pain inside
and one time I cut so deep
and that was the night I died

but to all those who love me
I was always sad
put your self in my shoes
try living the life I had