When all is Lost

Hes walked away from me
I knew we wouldn't last
All I have are memories
Memories of the past

I knew that once I let you in
That you'd leave someday
so now that I'm without your trust
I've pushed everyone away

I miss having someone I can trust
I miss having someone in my life
but slowly everyone has deserted me
and all I have is my knife

Feelings of abandonment are nothing new
I know that its like to hurt
I know what its like to be broken
and what its like to be treated as dirt

hurt and pain fallows me like a stormy cloud
It rains on me whenever I might be okay
It breaks me down like poison pain
It leaves me blind with little to say

I wish there was somewhere I could hide
to escape the realness of my reality
I wish that I could turn and run
I wish I could be left to my insanity

~Written in Blood~
Samantha