I despise

My best friend asked me out.
Two months ago.
I told my friend i thought he'd dump me.
And what did i know.

He told me he loved me.
And still says it today.
And then he expects me to say it back.
And i don't know what to say.

Because if he loved me.
He wouldn't have broken my heart.
So when he says he loves me.
I think.don't even start.

You said its because you don't wanna do anything stupid.
but if you really liked me.
you wouldn't even think to.
cant you see.

I don't want to be friends with benefits.
But i don't know if i want more.
And all of this thinking.
Is making me sore.

Either its you and me.
or its nothing at all.
you cant always get what you want.
and i don't want to fall.

fall for your silly games.
or even any more of your lies.
because the person i thought i knew.
is now someone i despise.