RIP Benji...l always love you

Why did you leave without saying good bye?
Why was I so mad when I was sad, all I could do was cry.
You were my best friend.
We had no secrets hid.

At least thats what I thought, but you apparently did.
Its been about six months but I am still waiting to mend.
I love you you were so close to me.
Why didn't you tell me, is this really how it had to be?

I cant seem to say goodbye still.
I am not sure I ever will.
I am sad you are gone but happy for you.
Maybe now you will start over, you can start a new.

All the pain and hurting you felt is gone now.
But now I am left asking myself how.
How didn't I see that you wanted to end it?
How didn't I know that you feel you just didn't fit?

I am sorry I wasn't there for you the way you were for me.
I wish I could have had a way to change things I wish I could see.
I just want a way to say goodbye.
So here it is...it even has a rhyme.

Please dont rate this one...Your comments are welcome but this is so close to my heart...Thank you for taking the time to read it.