Missing you when i should miss him

I sit here alone
in the dark
and in the silence.
The clock reads 3 am.

I see your face
and hear your voice
and i miss you.
But i should miss him.

I lay my head on my pillow
and close my eyes.
I try to think about him,
but i can't stop thinking about you.

I try to imagine
what the day will be like
when I'm set free
and run into your open arms.

It's a beautiful day
that day i imagined.
like the ending
of a perfect movie.

I want to hold you,
but I should want to hold him.
I want to be with you,
but I should want to be with him.

The clock reads 4 am,
I still can't sleep.
Thoughts of you keep racing
across my head.

I dream about you
and how impossible it is
to be together
for so many reasons.

I miss you
when i should miss him.
I love you
when i should love him.