Just The One

I’m the one crying myself to sleep
I’m the one cutting to ease my pain
I’m the one that’s about to die
I’m the one who’s going to waste away

I’m the one holding the knife
I’m the one pushing it against my wrist
I’m the one digging to hit a vein
I’m the one screaming with a clenched fist

I’m the one finding a rope
I’m the one tying it around my neck
I’m the one making sure it’s tight
I’m the one everyone calls a wreck

I’m the one grabbing a bottle of pills
I’m the one twisting it open with a shout
I’m the one taking a handful
I’m the one shoving them in my mouth

I’m the one who needs an escape
I’m the one who just wants to die
I’m the one crazy enough to do it
I’m the one who always seems to cry

I’m the one falling to pieces
I’m the one getting torn apart
I’m the one trying to get through each day
I’m the one healing my bleeding heart

I’m the one who wants it all to end
I’m the one that’s on the edge
I’m the one who’s been abandoned
I’m the one hanging by a thread

I’m the one that’s feeling unloved
I’m the one whose smile is fake
I’m the one with all the scars
I’m the one staying just for their sake

I’m the one hopelessly dreaming of you
I’m the one who loves you endlessly
I’m the one wishing for us to finally be
I’m the one who just needs you to save me

©® August 2005
Ciermae B.