DISTURBED

Being me feels like eternal hell
Never knowing how I'm going to feel from one minute to the next
Pain, anger, confusion, hurt
Why is my life, so complex??

Hurting because I hurt those who I love
Feeling Misunderstood
Analyzing everything
Wondering why I would...

Sometimes I'll get too happy
Then feel anxious because of that
So I self-meditate with alcohol
I shouldn't drink that crap...

I physically hurt myself
Then feel guilty because of this
Wanting to die but not being able to kill myself
I'd feel too much guilt for those I'd hurt and miss

Then I would get angry about that
Cut myself to try and make these feelings go away
Stress...
And it's here to stay