Mess

I don\'t know when this happened
When my life went down
It\'s started rolling right down hill
I used to be the class clown!

But bullying hit me
Hit me in the face
It made me feel like nothing
But hey, that IS the case

So my smile slowly faded
As no one ever bought it
They saw right through my cheesy grin
My flame was no longer lit

I got teased day in day out
And I put up with it
They thought they didn\'t effect me
But how could you ignore that sh it?

My moods they change faster than light
I loose so many friends
But then I change, and then we\'re cool
The cycle, never ends

Sometimes I get so angry
When I get critised
I can\'t explain the feeling
Of wanting, them to die...!

I know you\'ll think I\'m crazy
But thats no news to me
I just thought I would write this down
For the site to see

I\'m not all I seem to be
Not warm, happy-go-lucky
Inside I\'m sad, alone and scared
You\'ll soon meet the real me

I have feelings that don\'t make
sense
I didn\'t think they were real
But lately I have been told
They are okay to feel

I\'m on the road to recovery
From this huge speed bump
I\'ve got people beside me
Who have said that they\'ll never give up

But I\'m still scared they\'ll leave me
Sometimes I\'m scared to rest
I\'ll wake up and they all have gone
God...I\'m such a mess...