Everyday i find a new way,
of making myself seem happy to others!
everyday i find a new way,
of making myself undesirable to you!
how can i compete with myself,
to try and breakthrough who i really am!
i wear a mask to cover my tears of pain,
and to show my restrain of my love for you!
you think my feelings are weak,
you think i can move on without you!
but i need you, i crave you, i want you,
and knowing you will never be mine, destroys me from the inside!
i start to think i could be an actress,
seeing as i've managed to fool you so well!
i would never tell you the real reasons for my pains,
and sometimes i can pretened that i'm great!
i try not to cry, but i just breakdown anyway,
you've left a scar without even knowing.
upon my heart thats bled and bled and would not stop.
i feel that i can drown in my sorrow and make myself be dead!
why do you do this me??!!
why do i do this to myself???!!!
