If I just had you,
everything would be fine,
but you're not here.
You were all I ever needed,
but you didn't even care.
I think of how I felt,
but my heart was shattered,
ready to melt.
nothing mattered,
nothing spoke,
nothing inspired me.
not the smoke in the air,
nor the spray of the sea.
I'm living in this old shell,
just hair and nails and cell,
and no matter what I can not tell,
what I want to see.
I need to break free of this skin,
don't help me,
you'll get this.
I'm infected with this disease,
I constantly sweat from this unease.
You know, I always thought,
that this fever burning hot,
from this disease,
from this unease,
could all be stopped.
If I just had you,
but you're not here.
You were all I ever needed,
but you didn't even care.
You never heard my words,
you never saw my tears,
you never felt hot laughter,
bearing a hot sear.
But everything is over now,
and lost words have gone unsaid.
This is what I would've said,
if I didn't want you this bad.
But I still need to hear your words,
Sometimes I need my tears.
I still want to see your laughter,
and I will always thank you after.
If I just had you,
everything would be fine,
but you're not here.
You were all I ever needed,
but you didn't even care.
