He always knew...

I remember,
the day we first met
i knew our love would last
like our lives were finally set

i needed you so much
i felt like i would die without you
and slowly day by day
my nightmares started to come true

we started to drift away
and i didn't understand why
and all i could do
was sit there and cry

one day, you were to quiet
and you started to scare me
i was afraid you'd break me heart
so i told you to go away

you said "we need to talk"
the words I've been dreading for over four weeks
and i begged to myself
please, please don't hurt me

i got so scared
that i just ran away
i just couldn't take
what he was about to say

.:::..

i got a call the next day
my heart died
for i learned, you my love
committed suicide

i ran over to your house
and into your mothers grasp
i cant believe this happened
you promised you make it last

she gave me a note
and said it was only for my eyes
i opened the note slowly
and started to cry

" My love,
when you read this letter
I'll already be gone
but i promise everything will get better
I'm so sorry darling
please don't be mad to
the other day i wanted to say something
i wanted to tell you i loved you
and I'm sorry it has to be this way
but you'll always be in my heart
and no matter what
nothing can ever tare us apart
i love you and i miss you
please, live for me, don't die
I'll be with you always,
please don't cry"

* since the poem is so long, i made it into two parts please read part 2, if you wish to read the rest of the poem......*