Scared Tactics

Filthy decisions, scary tactics,
I don't know what to do.
Blade rusting, poison kicking in,
Freaked out, I don't want the end.
Blame, my fault,
I tried to heed; all you did was say departure.

How low, never thought that
Would overcome you to do such craze.
Scared the shit out of me,
Left me in snuffle, exhausted.
With held from me, the condition at hand,
Never wanted aid.

Adversity, making me sick,
Now I feel like to just give in.
Tell me to overlook,
Always on my intellect.
Tried not to consider, the whole thing seemed to
Deteriorate by the minute.

Illumination out, I try to catnap,
And get some respite.
Putting dread behind in my ideas,
In denial, I have no idea what to do.
Help, all I have on propose,
And an offer; to wipe away the alarm.